This is my very first post.
I might not post again but lying in bed at 3am with a drunk husband next to me, a 2 year old in the next room and an even more drunk brother in law in the spare room I feel I need to get things off my chest and no one wants a call at this time of the morning.
Today I had my first counselling session, only my husband and my boss knew so once I’d finished I had no one to talk to as hubby went out (hence the drunkness) and my boss isn’t exactly the person I want to speak to right now …so the fact I’ve been feeling shit all day has lead to setting up a blog to let my feelings out instead as the drunken husband won’t listen in his drunken sleep
I spent 50 minutes talking and crying and wondering if next week I’ll feel better than I do right now, I definitely feel worse than when I went in but I guess that’s the point of them (not to feel shit but to open up and talk and re surface why I’m there in the first place) I don’t think the detail of why I’m going needs to be told at the moment, I don’t want to write and regret just yet especially in my first blog
I think my 2 year old will wake up in about 3.5 hours and it’s Saturday tomorrow so I can’t hand him over to anyone, I need to look after him and his teenage tantrums that I’m sure I shouldn’t be experiencing for at least another 11 years? So I’m going to keep this short and sweet in the hope I get some sleep….
Lastly, also going round my head is why I’m doing this, will people even read this? How will they find it? I’m hardly going to share the link on my Facebook am I? Or am I doing it to put my feelings down in the hope it helps?
Night all x